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"that was pretty, now give up." said the lady bug filer in Veronica's head.

from the belly of the fish

Jonah 1:1-3

Sitting in a new church this weekend. Good people, good praise team. Pastor’s sermon was good in that it made me think. I am not sure I always followed his line of thinking, but the point made it through.

He was basically talking about decisions and opportunity. How when we hear a clear calling from God we tend –like Jonah, or Adam/eve- to find another option and follow our way instead of God’s. We do need to remember to weigh each decision, no matter how small against God’s plan, against His word. Our purpose is to stand in the gap-providing a mirror of Jesus to the lost world.

The whole time that the pastor was talking about having a clear vision or calling , and I was thinking it usually isn’t. So I turned over my bulletin and wrote: “What about when the calling isn’t so clear?“ and continued to listen to the pastor. Moments later I wrote: “Not that I am trying to justify my actions, but most of the time the decision doesn’t seem so clear.” To which my thought went (and I wrote) “ So dig in and listen up because more often than not we create our own noise.”

What I was basically telling myself is this: when the decision isn’t clear is it because God isn’t clear or because I am quick to doubt, quick to look for a way out? Have we trained ourselves to doubt the obvious and to question what we don’t understand? To immediately discredit that with which we are uncomfortable?

go figure

I had a thought worth blogging earlier...

Christmas

It's been a beautiful holiday! Family events have all gone smoothly, no crazy fights or anything. And yet it seems as though something is missing.

Christmas lights are always beautiful... but they just aren't the same alone.

clear sky

the stars were beautiful tonight...
the moment i had to glimpse them made me wish i had taken more time,
and that I had been able to share them with you.

just like my tights...

just like my tights...

perception is holey.

it's not faulty neccesarily, but it depends on factors beyond the control of the perciever.