realizations...

Do you ever think about the lives that are being lived around you? Lives of people that you care about, but maybe can’t be involved in? I am sitting at work watching an old friend do business… and I think we used to be part of each other’s lives… not a large part but part. And he’s still in town, still goes about his life, but I don’t know much if anything about that life.

It’s the same with old college friends. I hear about them, read about pieces of their lives… and then you run into them in some random place and realize – they’re here too. They still go about their life in the same city you are in and yet you don’t participate in that life with them. You think about them and wonder what is going on with them , but never see them.

It’s not a purposeful thing, you just get busy with life. People and circumstances take you in a certain direction and you get lost in the day to day. It’s kind of like when you’re a kid and you think that if you just close your eyes no one can see you… instead of not being seen you are the one not seeing…

So I want to apologize, and I know you don’t think bad of me. I need to apologize just the same. If I have blinded myself to you and your life, if I’ve taken myself away. Please forgive me, and give me another chance. There are only so many moments, but I want to share them…. I want to cherish each and everyone.